When the start of the year feels like history all over again, I found myself trembling. Emotions swirling in different directions, causing confusion and with no where else to go, they pour down like heavy rain. I could drown if I wanted to.
I picked myself up in months, ready to move on with courage and hope that good things will come. Good things did eventually show up, and I felt myself getting better. Feeling more positive about life. The past few months before 2013 expired, I was laughing again, I was looking forward to waking up every day. There were days I was afraid, angry, sad, and all that but they were so temporary. And I know this too, is temporary or at least, will be. But right now, it feels worse than death and today I entertain nothing but to fall into an eternal sleep, to escape, to say goodbye to memories that hurt.
If you promise that in 10 years I will be happier and this will no longer matter, then please let me be 35 today.
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