I don't know what to make of graduation shows. They make me incredibly nervous and self conscious not for the thought of having my works ignored or criticised, rather the suffocation and confusion from the crowd and losing people as you move from corner to corner. Social events are pressurizing and tiring in general, and my lack of attention to the surrounding at times like so makes me a terrible guide and entertainer. To be fair, it's not precisely how I wish to bid farewell to everyone. Hence, I do intend to carefully reconsider my appearance on convocation day, should I ever graduate successfully, for if it shall be a repeat of last night's event, I'd rather receive my (hopeful) certificate in private.
My god, will I ever stop being so neurotic and cynical.
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